... I never claimed they were. From the start, you were the only one using them as an excuse. [ he's still angry, even if it isn't as much. none of this is why he looked for owain, all he's doing is being swept up by owain's indecipherable pace. with a tired sigh, he wraps one arm around owain's waist and the other around his back then onto his shoulder. ]
If it will end this, I will say it again. As plainly as I can so that even a child may understand it. [ shifting so he can whisper into owain's dumb ear. ] To lose you would only add to my burden. I would be heartbroken, and even Brady's sobs would be put to shame before my grief.
[ he stiffens at first, but when he feels gerome return the hug at least, owain allows himself to relax again. he's definitely warmed up at least since their time outside. ]
Good. Let that be your incentive to live. [ he hates all of this too much to stay like this for very long. as soon as he's certain he won't yell at owain again out of anger, he pulls back enough to look him in the eyes. ]
[ he's still holding on, but not because he needs it ] Like I said, it was completely out of my control. I have plans, ideas, on what I can do in every situation in battle. How can I parry a blade, how to dodge an Elthunder, how to confound an enemy...
... Or if a number decided your fate instead. The miscount may have altered the verdict, but until that moment you had a one in six chance at death. [ he can't read meta so he doesn't know owain doesn't need to be held. he would let go otherwise.
also, he subtly tightens his grip and pulls owain closer. ]
Absurd when you consider all we've lived through. The frenzied town may pose a greater danger than the mafia. [ good. and he will just not think about any of this very hard because they were both afraid and that's all he needs to know. ]
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Gerome, forget about who we are, who our parents were! I just... [ holds tight and pulls him into a hug
because fuck logic right now ]
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First you ask I remember and now that I forget. Which is it, then? You cannot have them both, Owain.
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Remember them, but don't let them be the sole reason why you do something!
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If it will end this, I will say it again. As plainly as I can so that even a child may understand it. [ shifting so he can whisper into owain's dumb ear. ] To lose you would only add to my burden. I would be heartbroken, and even Brady's sobs would be put to shame before my grief.
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A burden... something I never want to be.
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You forced me to speak. Now it's your turn.
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But here? If one or two more had voted for me?
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also, he subtly tightens his grip and pulls owain closer. ]
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